Monsoon Season

     It's been a lot harder to keep up with this once a day painting/ page goal this week. I would like to say  that school is what's gotten in the way, but honestly it was just me being moody and pessimistic about graduating. No worries, I'm over it! So here are my favorites from this week :)

The first scan of this page was black and white by accident, but I'm glad because it's a very different image when completely tonal. Black and white gives the feeling of an x-ray: all bones. 

    

     Maybe it's normal to be freaking out a little bit about the future. I advise anyone in a similar position to take a deep breath, and to be proud of what you've achieved so far, no matter what it is. Because at the end of the day it's not about building up a weapon of credibility to use against others. It's about making progress, enjoying your way, having good breakfasts and doing exactly what makes you happy.

Yeah... pretty sure that's it.

An Apple a Day.

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Sketchbooks have always been problematic for me because when I draw or paint, I don't like to view it as some less developed part of my oeuvre just because it was done on paper or wasn't agonized over. If I say something is "just for practice" my mind shuts off and goes on to better things. SO, to keep myself working I've assigned myself a daily page to fill until it looks satisfactory. Staying present while working is the goal, so each page acts as a reflection on the day it was made. Hopefully through this daily excercise I'll become better at speaking in a voice that is honest, and not just a regurgitation of skills taught over the past few years.

       Working through a problem feels better than just restarting. I enjoy the process of not knowing where something is going, and working with what happens. It's hard, especially if you're a perfectionist, but wonderful, because it's a moment you couldn't have had it you hadn't messed up in the first place.